Well. For a minute there I was pregnant. But now I'm not.
It's disheartening mostly. It's also making me considerably more cynical about positive pregnancy tests. I would love to be one of those women who get a positive test and believe with certainty that they'll get a baby out of the whole deal. Instead I see a positive and think, well I'm pregnant. Again. For now.
The whole thing was unexpected since we were preventing, but definitely not unwelcome. I had just enough time to start getting excited about the idea of a third child before the beginning of the end. When the spotting started I knew it was over. Despite my intuition and a first doctor visit on Wednesday, miscarriage wasn't confirmed until this afternoon. But it was confirmed.
My medical history now officially includes: Pregnancies: 4, Live Births: 2. *sigh*
Elsha, I'm so sorry. You're in my thoughts.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad to read it on your blog before hearing it in person but nevertheless, I'm so sorry. Let me know if you need anything. I'll see you in 2 days!
ReplyDeleteSorry Elsha. I hate filling out the medical information and seeing the number of pregnancies higher than the number of live births. It brings back memories every time.
ReplyDeleteSending empathy.
Oh, Elsha... I am so sorry. I just had the same thing happen in September. It's just so difficult. You are in my prayers and thoughts.
ReplyDeleteHugging you in my heart!
Elsha, I am sorry. We have lost 2 as well and it sucks. I feel very cynical about the early part of pregnancy also, which is sad. Prayers for your physical and emotional healing.
ReplyDeleteI'll see you tomorrow and hug you in person.
ReplyDeleteI came across your blog through the 'next blog' button. I just wanted to offer some support.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry for your loss. That really just sucks.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! You are in my thoughts and prayers!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteThat's why I always wait awhile to tell people. I'm afraid of that first few months too.
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